October 21, 1989

On this past October 21st it marked a traumatic day

On this date of October 1989

Was the day, the disaster

After 23 years I'm still questioning why

I felt I was innocent I wish I did die

Now I still feel all my anger

I cannot control myself

I just scream and yell

As if my life had no meaning

Should I live or should I die

I've yet to know

I still wonder  "why"!!

Maybe I'm just asking too much for me

But with all my failures

I'm begging to see

I need to lay off myself

 And sit back and breathe

I'm still holding my breath

Waiting for something to happen

What am I looking for

I've been waiting so long

I'm now wondering

If I just need to play along

I've been living my life

I'll just add it I've been fake

I need to show who I am

before it's too late