BAD NIGHT AFTER BAD DAY

In the morning, I was rudely awoken

To find my drum set had been simply broken

 I had no idea how it got this way

But whoever is responsible

Is sure going to have to pay

I've tried to piece things together

But without any luck

My suspicions lead me nowhere

This will cost me a buck

Nothing could compare

I will find out of the careless actions

They may have not meant any harm

But I'm afraid they'll have to face my reaction

Whoever it is will simply deny

And as no one ever believes me

 I'll forever question why

No one is willing to hear my voice

Is it because they do not understand

Maybe this is not my choice

They never listen

Since what they say is always right

I can never win my point

It's here at this brain injury place

They need to defend their integrity

Because if it were to be questioned

The future would not be bright

Many jobs would be questioned

The insurance companies would cut back

So this may mean they will not be given any slack

They better start to prepare

For what the future might hold

Seems they don’t know

What’s coming their way

Will soon yet unfold

Tonight my cat saved my life

As he jumped on my lap

As I held to my wrist with a knife

How long must I wait

As these days grow short

For I do not know

Until it is too late

Finally home

Today was my last day down in Houston

I'm sad to be back I became so used to it

As my mother was down to join us

We were so happy she was there

I was able to act normal

And not worry about the paranormal

No threats to be made

For this I certainly was afraid

My mind sometimes

Has more control over me

It can lead me so helpless

While my mind is never set free

I was always to blame

I can jump to conclusions

Without any thought

And the words that I say

Come straight from my heart

I don’t seem to care

About the others I hurt

But this time I was strong

While enjoying myself there

I did not want to ruin Christmas

Like I do every year

Because in the past

I was able to remain clear

My mind did not get scrambled

With thoughts how I'm not so successful

As my brother and his wife

Didn't matter at all

I'm just happy for them

To achieve their goals

I just hope they are pleased

To see that I've got what I need

Last night stay in Houston

My Last day in Houston

Last night I slept very good
on my brothers 3rd floor of his house
Along with his house
Includes a separate apartment
My mom slept there
While she didn't care
I was stuck in my room
As I had no choice
I did not complain
It would do me no good
As if I were to complain
I would just be sent up to complain
My attitude was calm
It would just make it worse
I was just to be cautious
Not to ruin my Christmas
Because it then may ruin
The spirit for everyone else
I just was to enjoy
My stay here this year
And write poetry
To keep my mind clear
So far this week at my stay
There was no dismay
I was jealous of my brother
Who could make his own way
He took the week off from work
So he could be with his family
I'm so happy he did this
So for him we could be happy
When time was passing
I could sit and write stories
As I never got board
I would leave with good memories
Although I'll be happy to go
And be with my friends
Who may be waiting for me
To safely return
They will. Be surprised
That I was to remain cool
And not to act crazy
And then behave as a fool

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My se day in Houston

Last night I slept very good
on my brothers 3rd floor of his house
Along with his house
Includes a separate apartment
My mom slept there
While she didn't care
I was stuck in my room
As I had no choice
I did not complain
It would do me no good
As if I were to complain
I would just be sent up to complain
My attitude was calm
It would just make it worse
I was just to be cautious
Not to ruin my Christmas
Because it then may ruin
The spirit for everyone else
I just was to enjoy
My third day here here this year
And write poetry
To keep my mind clear
So far this week at my stay
There was no dismay
I was jealous of my brother
Who could make his own way
He took the week off from work
So he could be with his family
I'm so happy he did this
So for him we could be happy
When time was passing
I could sit and write stories
As I never got board
I would leave with good memories
Although I'll be happy to go
And be with my friends
Who may be waiting for me
To safely return
They will. Be surprised
That I was to remain cool
And not to act crazy
And then behave as a fool
And

Christmas dinner at my brothers house

What a pleasure for the Christmas dinner

With my brother and my sister

Their friends who were to join us

They both are very friendly

With many smiles

And lots of laughing

The couple with us

seemed lots of teasing

I alerted the husband

For the warning That  his wife

just may be overbearing

That a lot of the jokes he made

included his wife

It just seemed to me

That this she may spite

Should I be mistaken

And this all was in fun

For they are happily married

And therefore I am wrong

Should I be assured they will not take me serious

Because I should be sure

That their marriage is strong

After23years I've decided to write this blog in hopes to help those are reading to understand the emotions of many traumatic brain individuals who have survived this horrific experience


The day that I awoke 4 weeks
after being in a coma
I didn't quit understand that  for rest of my life
would be filled with much trauma
The past 23 years I've been living
To tryin to show that this never happened
But I was to realize that I was mistaken
I was trying yo  prove that nothing has happened
But the fort I gave I would only be surprised
Since my life had changed so greatly
It was so difficult for me to adjust appropriately
The new life that I thought I was given
I could not seem to want to be living
I almost tried to just give up
But I wanted to prove to family and friends
I was a fighter not a quitter

GOOD MORNING HOUSTON TEXAS

GOOD MORNING HOUSTON TEXAS

I was able to sleep well

On the third floor of my brother and sister’s motel

Although it is not a real motel,

The accommodations were the best of all

The treatment was more than I expected

Simply because I behaved myself

Without any surprise they could not predict

I could only imagine their expectations

It only matters

If I were to keep myself busy I would be able to avoid my attitude

From getting so upset

As of now my first day here

I should be able to keep my mind clear

My negative poetry

Could only lead me astray

But now as I write

I will only surprise

They might be prepared

For nothing but the worst

So this time I will show them

That my attitude has only reversed

My feelings have changed

Not now but forever

As I'm so happy to see

That my brother and his wife

I no longer have to compete for

For the rest of my life

Battle between brothers

Today is Sunday, December 22^nd

Sorry I've been gone

My life really has not been pleasant

Tomorrow I am planning to fly to Houston, Texas

My brother and his wife

Are living very well

My attitude lately has slightly been aggressive

The assistive living rehab

Has been questioning my vacation

They are afraid my attitude will then follow

I've threatened too many times

To take away my life

They don't think it would be the best

To take this down there with me

After expressing all my envy

Towards my brother

I still think we are battling

To see who is better

Now after I was hurt

As a child I feel to win

That the real competition

is yet to begin

I need to realize

That I am helpless to win

So why should I bother

This is what leads me

Since we are brothers we need not to compete

So I must just sit back

And keep my ass on the seat

I don’t need to be concerned

To feel better than Pete

Feeling rejected and lost

The excitement for life has gone

 The love I once had has left my bones

I fear that my family is no longer with me

Could it be that I left them behind?

I just want them to know

That I have not stepped away

I need their support each and every day

My sense of well-being is drifting away

While I am to walk each day of my life

I’m getting so afraid

I believe my family has left me

I cannot control my ways

And that there will soon be a day

I will just secretly fall away

I don't think they will find me

I'll be hiding alone

With my God and my Father

Joining with Him safe in Heaven

Everyone warns me of making this choice

So they better think once or twice

I know I've done wrong

But no mercy is given

Now the choice has left me

To see them in Heaven

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As of now I ave yet to put a greeting message on my phone

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After I returned from my activities for the day

I was really surprised that Olivia stopped by

It was originally supposed to be Sara to sit

But it seems as though she's decided to quit

She never answers her phone

Neither does she return a call

We are starting to get concerned about what has happened to her

Now she had only spent one day with me

I try not to take it personally

But it's what I can see

When she was over to monitor my behavior

I'm afraid I was a little too harsh with her

When I awoke from my nap and went to my living room

I saw she was texting and I expressed that I didn't approve

Texting in my apartment was against the regulations

She was only to follow her written expectations

Christmas Day

CHRISTMAS

Happy days are here these days

Santa Clause, he's coming this way

We must try not to be naughty, but nice

He's going to look at you

not once but twice

Santa may just be a surprise to you

It just may be too late whatever you do

Christmas is just around the corner

It will be here before you know it

So what you do can matter a bit

Wow what a day for him to come

Because if you are naughty you can never run

Santa will be chasing you in his sleigh

And before you know it he'll be here today

If you are nice to all

Then Santa will be there if you fall

He is watching you from high above

So when Christmas Day comes he will show all his love

23years

After23years I've decided to write this blog in hopes to help those are reading to understand the emotions of many traumatic brain individuals who have survived this horrific experience

The day that I awoke 4 weeks

After being trapped in a coma

I didn't quite understand

The rest of my life

Would be filled with much trauma

The past 23 years I've been living

To try and show that this never happened

But I was to realize that I was mistaken

I was trying to prove that nothing has happened

But the harder I tried I would only be surprised

Since my life had changed so greatly

It was so difficult for me to adjust appropriately

The new life that I thought I was given

I could not seem to want to be living

I almost tried to just give up

But I wanted to prove to family and friends

I was a fighter not a quitter

Thoughts for the day

Dear My Child,

I can see you

I can feel the thoughts you’re feeling

I can see your dreams while you are sleeping

I am always here to help you

In those days you are feeling helpless

You can just call unto me and I will always be there

These are the words that I promise to you

You are special to me

Even though you may not see

I am following your ways

Of your each and every day

Please, I ask, stay you with me

You can trust me lean on me

I am forever your friend

Blessings to you,

Your Lord and your Father

Dream

  out there is the dream Dan hopes to find
Dans dreams seem will soon lost
No matter what the cost
My assistance is needed
For all those I know
As of now i understand
That this may not be there
As for me I may never will know

     

The clock

The clock

The clock is now ticking
As I await my long desired freedom
I will ask hem to try me
As I prove nothing will be done
I already tested my chances of taking care of his health
Now this only put me confined to my freedom
As I carelessly risked my health at this time
I feel this is why I eatam punished as it's their time not mine
How long must I suffer
This I question why
I guess this I can't answer
While it's their hands not mine
I now feel so helpless
I guess this I deserve
I've Ben told this is not punishment
It's only for my health and my safety
And there's no question why

Sanity

 

as the summer grows near
My dreams the are so unclear
It is daily
Sometimes I feel I'm so confused
I or it  just luck or is it me?
As If you were to ask me
Seems that I'd be one to loose

But I feel I'm not a looser
Yet at times I feel mistaken
Is it is up me
But I am so confused
As my senses they are taken
If I were to leave home
I need to make sure
That my sanity is  with me
As I hope to live free

Who am I ...

Who am I
I believe I am a loving person
I would rather be loved in return
Than I just search as I learn
I work hard to be that person
I want others to feel good about themselves
Yet sometimes I can fail
When I lose my desire  to care
I  will fight deep inside
As I am daily confined
I feel as though I am loosing my mind
I am unable to get out and about
Due to my health and my safety
I need to be monitored daily
So they can notice the were wrong completely

At the age of 17 was seriously injured
In an auto accident that was the drivers fault not mine
After 23 years I now can prove to others
That  nothing seemed to happen

Making it hard for me to not be what I want to be
I just want others to not need concern of my safety
Yet there are are times when I feel the memory returns
And this anger comes back as my life is left in Gods' hands

I now have control and can see the new me
The person that can love as I wish Others can see

As of now I'm feeling so alive
All thanks toAnnArbor Rehab
Found on Professional Drive

They claim to do nothing but there best
But what I can see this is true
As I have come here for help
I d no longer  crawl but I can walk

My injury has left my mind empty
Which lead me to Ann Arbor Rehab
To get what I need
With nothing but the best to succeed

I've been in and out
Many centres before
But Ann Arbor Rehab they show me much more

In closing I would just like to say
That if it wasn't for them
I'd be lost every day


Ash arbor  Reb facilities for brain Injury

Thanksgiving day

What a joy to go home to be with my mother

This sure made Thanksgiving hope for the better

We were invited by friends we know from our church

The fellowship was there we had so much to learn

We knew that our faith

Could be shared with much grace

Our God in our father

We could feel him in our place

We give thanks to our God

For the promises he's given

So with our faith we will know

We will see him in heaven

Thanksgiving day

What a joy to go home to be with my mother And being with some friends which I will be in to be with some friends to make all things better These friends from our church