Music

As I'm sitting in the doctor’s office

I can hear the music in the air

It's so peaceful in my heart

I feel the angels everywhere

They promise they'll be with me

They say they will never leave me

I can feel this comfort in my heart

I can rest assured we will never part

You may not believe in angels

They are following, they are loving

You must reach deep

They will not rest while you sleep

WHAT A JOYOUS CHRISTMAS

Today is Christmas

While I'm visiting my brother and his wife

I needed not to compete

With my brother Pete

I am now happy you see

How well he is on top of his feet

On solid ground

So his days he can complete

He is successful

With everything he needs

So tell me why should I complain

Because I have everything I need

With a little musical insight

It's about time I may remind you

that I was born and raised

To be a musician

The hard work that I put forth

Led my life through tradition

I started with piano

and lead me to trumpet

After a few years

I was not so confident

I then tried percussion

At a very young age

That was the thing for me

It helped me remove all of my anger

Whenever I was mad

I would take it out on the drums

After my senior year of high school

Became the moments of rage

Then followed by a serious injury in an auto accident

That turned the page

And put all of my practice

Under the stage

I felt with much confidence

That I was back on my way

But the traumatic accident happened

I needed to pray

My life had been changed

Was it for the better

Or was it for the worse

I needed to decide

I just had to make up my mind

And bite the bullet

The Puzzle

03/24/2015

It's been nearly 30 years ago that I was hurt

And still to this day, I'm wondering why

I was told not to question

Should I wonder why

For I do not need an answer

So why should I question

As I try to remember why this happened

Was I the author of this horror

My mind is still supposing

I will never find the answer

Of where the piece of this puzzle is

It may never be found

Because the pieces of this puzzle

I will only be chasing

As though I can’t see

But why should I care

Where these pieces can be

I just still need to let go

I never liked puzzles

But this one still needs that last piece

CONTROL

T continueMy nights are filled with darkness, my days are filled with with silence.

My mind is racing all day long I feel as though im seeking some quietness

My life will never be left alone.  I am a product of today's economy

I will never get my space whole there will always be money to be made.

OntrClol I scream LEAVE ME ALONE!! They're response is always silence.

The will never leave me be, so I will continue to react in much defiance.

What are they expecting.  The harder that they push me,

 I will forever push them back.  They can never think they have all control.

Because I can show it is me who decides this.  My days are mine alone. 

They are not to be under their control.  Why I can continue to be alone.

While I will be at peace.  To share all those who seem they they know it all.

Work

Yesterday was the day to sit back and eat

I didn't have to work as I enjoy all my treats

In the morning I take part

In delivering meals to those who are in need

This makes me feel satisfied

that I'm giving to help

When I receive more

Than what I deserve

Because of my injury

I cannot take care of my needs

So the assistance I am getting

Is much more than I could ask

I go shopping each week

And the provisions that I receive

Are much more than I can believe

I’m not asking for these

I just greatly receive

There’s not a thing that I deserve

And this takes away all my concern

Dragon

There was a hunter
As he was out in the wilderness
he came upon a cave
As he entered this cave
It was much darkness and silence
He then proceeded through the cave
There was smoke getting thicker
he then pulled out his rifle as he was hunting wild game
He then looked and saw red, glowing eyes
As he held his rifle high
This creature then blew a bright fire
The cave then filled with light so bright
He was able to see his fate
There was a dragon blocking his path
with fear he then continues
The closer that he got
he discovered it was a dragon
He had never hunted a dragon
Every shot was then stopped
For this dragon's skin was that of leather
He felt as though he met his match
This creature then laid down
as the hunter he then found
He was able to shoot inside its mouth
And this is how the story of the dragon came about

The End

Is it luck or is it God

Is it luck or is it God?

As we live our lives

We do what we want

While some of us choose to think less of ourselves

Could it we are selfish?

Could it be we’re too proud?

There are so many people who can't love themselves.

While they feel they have been dealt a bad hand

They just have to take it ‘til the end

 And it is far too great for them to bear

The last thing they think is, who is it who really cares

But does this really matter

We may not feel Him everywhere

Each day is a blessing

It is more than just our luck

It is God who is with us

And we should often remember to do the best that we can

That our days are not just luck

They are part of God’s plan 

January 14,2013 Daniel Brohn

Frustration

Today was a very challenging  day for me

It seemed as though I could not find anything I need

It's hard for people to understand

 That I'm trying to do the best that I can

But with my loss of vision in my right eye

I work so hard to give it a try

Yet behind what has happened

I'm now feeling this is all part of God’s plan

He didn't prevent my injury

He just allowed me to show

The strength that I have

Can be used so I can support others

To be the be best that they can

I can now understand what I'm yet able to see

That due to my injury

I am able to help others to be the best they can be

GUILT

I'm feeling so guilty

The Truth must come out

The hard life I am living

Was that of my fault

This now brings more depression

More anger I will fear

I might just turn on myself and end it right here

Yes, I'm considering taking my life

Yet those who really care

Try changing my mind

I wish they could feel the pain that I am now living

They may get me more help

From the pain I’m considering

Is my life really surrounded

by those who truly care?

Is it just in my mind?

I don’t see them anywhere

They may be upset

When I'm no longer around

For this I will not know

When I’m six feet underground

Of this I won't know

Should I fake it as I show

May I hang on to The Lord

Trusting He will never let go

UNDERSTANDING

You could never understand what I'm going through

You can never understand

My excuses seem so never ending

They are starting to get to sound so fake

You can never understand my reality

That my pain continues greatly

This hurts so much to say to myself

Where has my reality gone

You can say you understand

You can never comprehend

I don't wish my life on anyone

As this will take me to the bitter end

You will never understand

TODAY

Today belongs to you

Don't let anything stop you

You have so much potential

That no one can take from you

Or let you do what you want to

No one can stop you

You’re an inspiration to all

Whatever' is to happen

Don't let it make who you are

Because TODAY it is your day

Don't let anyone lead you

Because TODAY it is for you

The path you are taking

It is yours and yours alone

You must make it your decision

and keep it til your done

WALKING IN MY SHOES

You can never understand what I am saying

And of this you'll never know

You've never walked inside my shoes

How dare you try to see the green light go

You could never walk along my side

If you were given the chance

You could never seem to dance

My shoes would never fit

So why should I ever give a *honk*

As of now I am still wondering why

I didn't choose to wear these shoes

I guess I’ll have to wear them

Until the day I die

Sitting on my pills

SITTING ON MY PILLS

Every night I have to take medication 

to help stabilize my mood

I've been told that I'm bipolar 

I guess this will be my food

I wish I did not need this
But they say that it should help
I get depressed and often mad
And I really hate myself

This is why I take medication
To help control these symptoms that I suffer
It's against my will
As I'm sittin' on my pills
Sittin' on my pills
Sittin' on my pills

I wish that I could change
And turn a different page
As I live this life of mine
It would never be a lie
My days are full of thrills
I can't control them at my will
This is why you'll always catch me
Sittin' on my pills

Tonight I was sittin on my pills 

Sittin on my pills

I wish that they could hear me
Or I could hear myself
For as long as I play this game
And fool them that I can do this without help

I wish I didn't need these pills
But this is none of my choice

I just couldn't hide them
I'm always sittin' on my pills

Forever sittin on my pills

Sitting on my pills

My mood gets so unstable 

I can't control it at my will

I feel I will have to face it

As I'm sittin on my pills

MY LIFE IT HAS BEEN LOST

My life it has been lost

And no one seems to care

Maybe it's me and I don’t care

For I fail to comprehend

What there is to understand

I know that my days they have no plan

So this may be the reason

I fail to understand

So why should I try

I'm sick of

Wasting all my time

While I scream out my last cry

So maybe someone will hear me

And try to make some effort

I'd rather be left alone

I've been living this so long

I'm just used to being alone

Who can I reach out to

This is why I can live without

Any days within my future

I’d just rather not find my way out

So this may be my last cry

Q

BAD MOOD

Hey Dan, when your emotions get the best of you

And you don't know where to turn

You need to remember you’re important to all

But you've learned through all those trials and tribulations

You can relate to many people who are in need of your kindness and understanding

You're a good listener and full of compassion

You can help others listen

With so much reaction

Because you've been there before

You must realize all those who are in need of your comfort

You can be there to fill them even more

You have so far touched many hearts

So you mustn't ever let go

There sure is a reason

That you need to show

So never let loose

There will always be someone who needs you

To guide them through their suffering

Don’t ever give up.

THE BOOK OF MY LIFE

The book of my life has so many pages

All these pages have so many changes

They seem to have no direction

With nothing to read

As I opened this book

It was dedicated to me

The author seemed to know

The more that I read

The more I could see

My life has no direction

Each page that you turn

Each page that you go through

You can see nothing

You can practice drawing

Much better than me

This is why my book has no pages

I am just trying so hard to make any changes
Where could I turn?
And what would I learn?

I think it’s too late

With no more on my plate

Who Really Cares?

There is only one of my staff who really cares about my safety

I am sure that others do but this one is always with me

I say I'm going to check my mail

She always follows me to the door

I only think my privacy is invaded

She seems to be behind me evermore

I question her does she really need to do this

She says that she's concerned of the fact that I might fall

I still find myself upset

Claiming I don't need her to follow

She says if I were to fall she would have to be a witness

Which may then prevent the cause of all my afflictions

I feel I'm being treated like a child

Oh this I often question

I will always need someone to watch me

I need those who really care

I just need to understand

That my safety is forever at risk

Due to my issues, my falling

I must understand

It will forever be like this

My log seems fill of anger
I look for pity every day
After 30 years of my injury
I'm still feeling my life has gone away

I Still haven't faced reality
Of how my life has changed so dramiticaly
I'm still looking for pity
How much do I deserve
Matey I am so selfish maybe I'm not quite as Bad as I think
But if I were to look at my life now
I might find have more strength
After all my trials and tribulations
I'm still growin stronger every day
I should now it's time take a look at reality
And feel as though I don't deserve so much pity
So who do I think I am
Searching for pity from my friends
I'm no longer to act so selfish
While can just ignore any pity
And live my life more free

At times I open my lips
My answered is clearly not there
So why should I get my hopes too high
Where I should be with no surprise
This often happens  my world is filled with so much hope
You could never stand while my hopes are just a joke
I feel I'm wanting so much
If I were to search for an answer
I may be just out of luck
And my questions could just get me stuck



There may be no answers we would like
Because we don't
Until it's to late
Not  

At times I open my lips
My answered is clearly not there
So why should I get my hopes too high
Where I should be with no surprise
This often happens  my world is filled with so much hope
You could never stand while my hopes are just a joke
I feel I'm wanting so much
If I were to search for an answer
I may be just out of luck
And my questions could just get me stuck



There may be no answers we would like
Because we don't
Until it's to late
Not  

My log seems fill of anger
I look for pity every day
After 30 years of my injury
I'm still feeling my life has gone away

I Still haven't faced reality
Of how my life has changed so dramiticaly
I'm still looking for pity
How much do I deserve
Matey I am so selfish maybe I'm not quite as Bad as I think
But if I were to look at my life now
I might qfind I have more strength
After all my trials and tribulations
I'm still growin stronger every day
I should now take a look at reality
Makes I'm should not feel as though I nerd so much pity
So who do I think I am
Searching for pity from my friends
I'm no longer to act so selfish
While can just ignore any pity
And live my life more free

I have come to understand
I was dealt a rotten hand
It's been thirty years now
And I still can't understand
I waks young and innocent
Why did this happen
And what can I do
There is nothing I can do
I'm told to make the best of what I have
But no one can understand  what.i really am feeling right now

I don't even care  what any one thinks
I just am trying to decide
If  I were to think anymore I may commit suicide
I'm lying in bed with a rope around my neck
I'm feeling so lonely
I'm a hot ass mess
What can I do
Where can I go
I'd rather not be here
So why not just end the show
The only people who seem to care

Are the ones who make money
There may come a point in time
Where the table will turn
And before it's to late
They would they that I should've learned
I cann never face the fact that I was dealt a really bad hand

My feelings and understanding

While I was young
Was only centered around me
As my days would only bring me satisfaction
While my pride was all I knew
I was selfish and gave no thanks
Until I needed His love
But was scared to ask
I could feel Him in my heart
Without asking Him to enter
He lifted me up and crowned me with everlasting joy
My resen .shame it quickly followed
But while this He never left me
He just allowed me to grow

It's now that I realize His love will never leave me
During those times I need Him most

My feelings and understanding
While I was young
Was only centered around me
As my days would only bring me satisfaction
While my pride was all I knew
I was selfish and gave no thanks
Until I needed His love
But was scared to ask
I could feel Him in my heart
Without asking Him to enter
He lifted me up and crowned me with everlasting joy
My resen .shame it quickly followed
But while this He never left me
He just allowed me to grow

It's now that I realize His love will never leave me
During those times I need Him most