BAD NIGHT AFTER BAD DAY

In the morning, I was rudely awoken

To find my drum set had been simply broken

 I had no idea how it got this way

But whoever is responsible

Is sure going to have to pay

I've tried to piece things together

But without any luck

My suspicions lead me nowhere

This will cost me a buck

Nothing could compare

I will find out of the careless actions

They may have not meant any harm

But I'm afraid they'll have to face my reaction

Whoever it is will simply deny

And as no one ever believes me

 I'll forever question why

No one is willing to hear my voice

Is it because they do not understand

Maybe this is not my choice

They never listen

Since what they say is always right

I can never win my point

It's here at this brain injury place

They need to defend their integrity

Because if it were to be questioned

The future would not be bright

Many jobs would be questioned

The insurance companies would cut back

So this may mean they will not be given any slack

They better start to prepare

For what the future might hold

Seems they don’t know

What’s coming their way

Will soon yet unfold

Tonight my cat saved my life

As he jumped on my lap

As I held to my wrist with a knife

How long must I wait

As these days grow short

For I do not know

Until it is too late

Finally home

Today was my last day down in Houston

I'm sad to be back I became so used to it

As my mother was down to join us

We were so happy she was there

I was able to act normal

And not worry about the paranormal

No threats to be made

For this I certainly was afraid

My mind sometimes

Has more control over me

It can lead me so helpless

While my mind is never set free

I was always to blame

I can jump to conclusions

Without any thought

And the words that I say

Come straight from my heart

I don’t seem to care

About the others I hurt

But this time I was strong

While enjoying myself there

I did not want to ruin Christmas

Like I do every year

Because in the past

I was able to remain clear

My mind did not get scrambled

With thoughts how I'm not so successful

As my brother and his wife

Didn't matter at all

I'm just happy for them

To achieve their goals

I just hope they are pleased

To see that I've got what I need

Last night stay in Houston

My Last day in Houston

Last night I slept very good
on my brothers 3rd floor of his house
Along with his house
Includes a separate apartment
My mom slept there
While she didn't care
I was stuck in my room
As I had no choice
I did not complain
It would do me no good
As if I were to complain
I would just be sent up to complain
My attitude was calm
It would just make it worse
I was just to be cautious
Not to ruin my Christmas
Because it then may ruin
The spirit for everyone else
I just was to enjoy
My stay here this year
And write poetry
To keep my mind clear
So far this week at my stay
There was no dismay
I was jealous of my brother
Who could make his own way
He took the week off from work
So he could be with his family
I'm so happy he did this
So for him we could be happy
When time was passing
I could sit and write stories
As I never got board
I would leave with good memories
Although I'll be happy to go
And be with my friends
Who may be waiting for me
To safely return
They will. Be surprised
That I was to remain cool
And not to act crazy
And then behave as a fool

G


My se day in Houston

Last night I slept very good
on my brothers 3rd floor of his house
Along with his house
Includes a separate apartment
My mom slept there
While she didn't care
I was stuck in my room
As I had no choice
I did not complain
It would do me no good
As if I were to complain
I would just be sent up to complain
My attitude was calm
It would just make it worse
I was just to be cautious
Not to ruin my Christmas
Because it then may ruin
The spirit for everyone else
I just was to enjoy
My third day here here this year
And write poetry
To keep my mind clear
So far this week at my stay
There was no dismay
I was jealous of my brother
Who could make his own way
He took the week off from work
So he could be with his family
I'm so happy he did this
So for him we could be happy
When time was passing
I could sit and write stories
As I never got board
I would leave with good memories
Although I'll be happy to go
And be with my friends
Who may be waiting for me
To safely return
They will. Be surprised
That I was to remain cool
And not to act crazy
And then behave as a fool
And

Christmas dinner at my brothers house

What a pleasure for the Christmas dinner

With my brother and my sister

Their friends who were to join us

They both are very friendly

With many smiles

And lots of laughing

The couple with us

seemed lots of teasing

I alerted the husband

For the warning That  his wife

just may be overbearing

That a lot of the jokes he made

included his wife

It just seemed to me

That this she may spite

Should I be mistaken

And this all was in fun

For they are happily married

And therefore I am wrong

Should I be assured they will not take me serious

Because I should be sure

That their marriage is strong

After23years I've decided to write this blog in hopes to help those are reading to understand the emotions of many traumatic brain individuals who have survived this horrific experience


The day that I awoke 4 weeks
after being in a coma
I didn't quit understand that  for rest of my life
would be filled with much trauma
The past 23 years I've been living
To tryin to show that this never happened
But I was to realize that I was mistaken
I was trying yo  prove that nothing has happened
But the fort I gave I would only be surprised
Since my life had changed so greatly
It was so difficult for me to adjust appropriately
The new life that I thought I was given
I could not seem to want to be living
I almost tried to just give up
But I wanted to prove to family and friends
I was a fighter not a quitter

GOOD MORNING HOUSTON TEXAS

GOOD MORNING HOUSTON TEXAS

I was able to sleep well

On the third floor of my brother and sister’s motel

Although it is not a real motel,

The accommodations were the best of all

The treatment was more than I expected

Simply because I behaved myself

Without any surprise they could not predict

I could only imagine their expectations

It only matters

If I were to keep myself busy I would be able to avoid my attitude

From getting so upset

As of now my first day here

I should be able to keep my mind clear

My negative poetry

Could only lead me astray

But now as I write

I will only surprise

They might be prepared

For nothing but the worst

So this time I will show them

That my attitude has only reversed

My feelings have changed

Not now but forever

As I'm so happy to see

That my brother and his wife

I no longer have to compete for

For the rest of my life

Battle between brothers

Today is Sunday, December 22^nd

Sorry I've been gone

My life really has not been pleasant

Tomorrow I am planning to fly to Houston, Texas

My brother and his wife

Are living very well

My attitude lately has slightly been aggressive

The assistive living rehab

Has been questioning my vacation

They are afraid my attitude will then follow

I've threatened too many times

To take away my life

They don't think it would be the best

To take this down there with me

After expressing all my envy

Towards my brother

I still think we are battling

To see who is better

Now after I was hurt

As a child I feel to win

That the real competition

is yet to begin

I need to realize

That I am helpless to win

So why should I bother

This is what leads me

Since we are brothers we need not to compete

So I must just sit back

And keep my ass on the seat

I don’t need to be concerned

To feel better than Pete

Feeling rejected and lost

The excitement for life has gone

 The love I once had has left my bones

I fear that my family is no longer with me

Could it be that I left them behind?

I just want them to know

That I have not stepped away

I need their support each and every day

My sense of well-being is drifting away

While I am to walk each day of my life

I’m getting so afraid

I believe my family has left me

I cannot control my ways

And that there will soon be a day

I will just secretly fall away

I don't think they will find me

I'll be hiding alone

With my God and my Father

Joining with Him safe in Heaven

Everyone warns me of making this choice

So they better think once or twice

I know I've done wrong

But no mercy is given

Now the choice has left me

To see them in Heaven

Phone Message

As of now I ave yet to put a greeting message on my phone

Rejected health and safety saff

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After I returned from my activities for the day

I was really surprised that Olivia stopped by

It was originally supposed to be Sara to sit

But it seems as though she's decided to quit

She never answers her phone

Neither does she return a call

We are starting to get concerned about what has happened to her

Now she had only spent one day with me

I try not to take it personally

But it's what I can see

When she was over to monitor my behavior

I'm afraid I was a little too harsh with her

When I awoke from my nap and went to my living room

I saw she was texting and I expressed that I didn't approve

Texting in my apartment was against the regulations

She was only to follow her written expectations

Christmas Day

CHRISTMAS

Happy days are here these days

Santa Clause, he's coming this way

We must try not to be naughty, but nice

He's going to look at you

not once but twice

Santa may just be a surprise to you

It just may be too late whatever you do

Christmas is just around the corner

It will be here before you know it

So what you do can matter a bit

Wow what a day for him to come

Because if you are naughty you can never run

Santa will be chasing you in his sleigh

And before you know it he'll be here today

If you are nice to all

Then Santa will be there if you fall

He is watching you from high above

So when Christmas Day comes he will show all his love

23years

After23years I've decided to write this blog in hopes to help those are reading to understand the emotions of many traumatic brain individuals who have survived this horrific experience

The day that I awoke 4 weeks

After being trapped in a coma

I didn't quite understand

The rest of my life

Would be filled with much trauma

The past 23 years I've been living

To try and show that this never happened

But I was to realize that I was mistaken

I was trying to prove that nothing has happened

But the harder I tried I would only be surprised

Since my life had changed so greatly

It was so difficult for me to adjust appropriately

The new life that I thought I was given

I could not seem to want to be living

I almost tried to just give up

But I wanted to prove to family and friends

I was a fighter not a quitter

Thoughts for the day

Dear My Child,

I can see you

I can feel the thoughts you’re feeling

I can see your dreams while you are sleeping

I am always here to help you

In those days you are feeling helpless

You can just call unto me and I will always be there

These are the words that I promise to you

You are special to me

Even though you may not see

I am following your ways

Of your each and every day

Please, I ask, stay you with me

You can trust me lean on me

I am forever your friend

Blessings to you,

Your Lord and your Father

Dream

  out there is the dream Dan hopes to find
Dans dreams seem will soon lost
No matter what the cost
My assistance is needed
For all those I know
As of now i understand
That this may not be there
As for me I may never will know

     

The clock

The clock

The clock is now ticking
As I await my long desired freedom
I will ask hem to try me
As I prove nothing will be done
I already tested my chances of taking care of his health
Now this only put me confined to my freedom
As I carelessly risked my health at this time
I feel this is why I eatam punished as it's their time not mine
How long must I suffer
This I question why
I guess this I can't answer
While it's their hands not mine
I now feel so helpless
I guess this I deserve
I've Ben told this is not punishment
It's only for my health and my safety
And there's no question why

Sanity

 

as the summer grows near
My dreams the are so unclear
It is daily
Sometimes I feel I'm so confused
I or it  just luck or is it me?
As If you were to ask me
Seems that I'd be one to loose

But I feel I'm not a looser
Yet at times I feel mistaken
Is it is up me
But I am so confused
As my senses they are taken
If I were to leave home
I need to make sure
That my sanity is  with me
As I hope to live free

Who am I ...

Who am I
I believe I am a loving person
I would rather be loved in return
Than I just search as I learn
I work hard to be that person
I want others to feel good about themselves
Yet sometimes I can fail
When I lose my desire  to care
I  will fight deep inside
As I am daily confined
I feel as though I am loosing my mind
I am unable to get out and about
Due to my health and my safety
I need to be monitored daily
So they can notice the were wrong completely

At the age of 17 was seriously injured
In an auto accident that was the drivers fault not mine
After 23 years I now can prove to others
That  nothing seemed to happen

Making it hard for me to not be what I want to be
I just want others to not need concern of my safety
Yet there are are times when I feel the memory returns
And this anger comes back as my life is left in Gods' hands

I now have control and can see the new me
The person that can love as I wish Others can see

As of now I'm feeling so alive
All thanks toAnnArbor Rehab
Found on Professional Drive

They claim to do nothing but there best
But what I can see this is true
As I have come here for help
I d no longer  crawl but I can walk

My injury has left my mind empty
Which lead me to Ann Arbor Rehab
To get what I need
With nothing but the best to succeed

I've been in and out
Many centres before
But Ann Arbor Rehab they show me much more

In closing I would just like to say
That if it wasn't for them
I'd be lost every day


Ash arbor  Reb facilities for brain Injury

Thanksgiving day

What a joy to go home to be with my mother

This sure made Thanksgiving hope for the better

We were invited by friends we know from our church

The fellowship was there we had so much to learn

We knew that our faith

Could be shared with much grace

Our God in our father

We could feel him in our place

We give thanks to our God

For the promises he's given

So with our faith we will know

We will see him in heaven

Thanksgiving day

What a joy to go home to be with my mother And being with some friends which I will be in to be with some friends to make all things better These friends from our church

Tomorrow is Wednesday
And it's a day that I work
There is going to be snow
I believe I will be late
Kelly is driving
I ask to stop at Dennie's
She thinks we have no time
I ask her please I am rather hungry
She agrees top
But she thinks we'll be late
I say I probably won't loose my job
Even though I just volunteer
I should treat it as though I have a real job
As then we as we drove up
The snow causes ice
She then parks behind the building

Si can safly walk in.

GODS PLAN

                                              IT'S TIME FOR CLOSURE

Today we are home to be with our mother
As its me and my sister and my brother
We will pray unto God
That he'll be her guide
We  know that she is strong
It's in you she confides
The comfort we give her
Can never compare
To all of God's wonder
That is everywhere
We thank you our God
For you put rest in our souls
As we live our lives
as our dad that he showed
The love that he showed us
Was much more than we asked
He will forever be missed
While  it's unto God that we clasp

GODS PLAN

Today I'm finally realizing

I can live my life

As part of Gods plan

I know it's going to be hard

But I will do the best that I can

I need to listen and pray

And trust He will lead the way

I need to follow his word

I need to Him

And no follow what I want

But what would Jesus do

This is is hard for me to listen

If I follow my will

And not follow His

I will forever be lost

I will forever stand still

I need to move on

From this injury I did suffer

And pray not for revenge 

For the

Mil

What Am I Feeling?

Tonight I'm feeling very irratable,
I'm feeling everything I say or do
Is so totally inexcusable.
I'm afraid I'm thinking that this may be the last of my blogs
I just may be going home sweet home
I figure this May be best for all others
I am still searching my soul
To find where I belong
From the day I was hurt
I've been in constant pain
I'm asking over and over again
Why must I suffer
Do I ask for too much
I'm not asking at all
I'm just here for the punch
I've been told to just turn my face
But to hell with that thought
I believe that since I still suffer
The driver should be kicked in HIS face.

RECENT DAYS

My days are coming clearer, As my acceptance leaves no fear Ever since the day that I was hurt My fears they fade away I lived as though I could never escape The day that I awoke And all my dreams were taken I felt the words it tried to feel They never could be spoke I would hide up in the corner And act as innocent that I could So now the time has risen To come out and succeed just as I should My dreams can now continue But they are so different than they were I must strive to make them stronger And make them nothing to compare

October 21, 1989

On this past October 21st it marked a traumatic day

On this date of October 1989

Was the day, the disaster

After 23 years I'm still questioning why

I felt I was innocent I wish I did die

Now I still feel all my anger

I cannot control myself

I just scream and yell

As if my life had no meaning

Should I live or should I die

I've yet to know

I still wonder  "why"!!

Maybe I'm just asking too much for me

But with all my failures

I'm begging to see

I need to lay off myself

 And sit back and breathe

I'm still holding my breath

Waiting for something to happen

What am I looking for

I've been waiting so long

I'm now wondering

If I just need to play along

I've been living my life

I'll just add it I've been fake

I need to show who I am

before it's too late

DEEP RAGING ANGER

I can still feel the anger deep inside I thought I let it go but I still cry

As I cry, the memories are still there I believe the driver should’ve been punished

I'm feeling as though I'm the one being punished I’m yet to wonder why my rage it is still there

For he has shattered my dreams I'm not sure that he cares As he walked away so innocently

My rage dwells deep inside I am forever to be stuck

My body is my holding cell I'm trapped inside it won't let go Why must I live this way As I live in such rage I guess I can never say

Rehab memories so far

I realize thI poem /or song is taken from the theme song but it fit so well through my exprence  in many different rehab facilities

Wouldn't  you like.to get away with every thing you got
Wouln't you like to like away your worries
Sure would help a lot
Somtimes  you wanna to go
Where  the troubles  are all the same
And they always glad you came
You wanna go where you can go the troubles Are all the same
You wanna go where everybody knows your name

Been gone a while

Sorry I've been gone fora little while

I've just bee so busy my mind neded a rest

This morning I was picked up by a staff that works for the rehabilition facility that I in am residing with now.  Her hair looked different so I complimented her saying She looked beautiful.
She then responded thank you.Then I told here that "the truth is always there while the truth cannot be hidden"
Shen told me that was very nice to hear.
That saying just came out from me
I didn't think befor I spoke
While there are too many times
What I say is just a joke
I would try notorious talk
Because it would only lead to trouble
Because the truth is always there
While the truth cannot be hidden

Bed bugs/ thankful help

The following day were the start of a great challenge for me

I was told I had bedbugs inside my apartment

I needed to move everything I had

All of the junk and the clutter were where they belong

Of this I had no clue and had no idea where to start

The attendant care I had

Was there to help me out

They do everything for me much more than I can ask

When I tried to help they told me to sit down and relax

They seemed so professional

I told them to look for better work

But the help that they gave me

Gave them so much worth

They don’t ask for a thank you

For they’re just doing their job

I was told I should ask with nothing in return

The help that they gave me

I can only say but thank you

For this they don’t ask because they’re just doing their job

AI AM THE MASTER

As long as I been in recovery
I've been ashamed to say what I feel
So how can I acept Cory doctors to heal
The pain that still ligers
After23 years it still hasn't slipped through my fingers
It is used just to help me
But as long as I lie
About bout is true deep inside
The Medes have no purpose
As.my true needs
Will remain as I hide
So goes I'm the master
Of what can truly be seen
If I continue to lie
How can they truly help me

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Acceptance

My acceptance to what has happened
Has been far to great to bear
But the support that I've been given
seemed more than everywhere
I need to accept what I'm going through
This new life That I now have
There's no going back
And change what has happened
I must move on tomorrow
And accept what I'm now livin'

Blue moon

In the darkness of the night

Shines a very bright blue moon

God shines upon us so bright

God’s word is with us with might

But as we lose our faith, God’s word it starts to darken

As his word begins to reign

All us sinners feel the call

As these sinners get together

No longer shall we fall

As it changes all our behavior

We are like volcanos all erupting

Raising catastrophic changes

That can affect our world

Just as we know it now

As we are sinners

Our sins can be forgiving

And affect the way we live

But we cannot change his word for us

Many smile upon his promise

Many smiles around this world

Can affect the way we live

It can possibly change the world

These believers are like mirrors

Who reflect God’s word and truth

These mirrors shine together

As they sing a different song

They are reflecting off the sun

As they shine beautiful colors

We try to think this is a rainbow

Because we don't see where it starts

Nor where it seems to end

These mirrors work together

To shine as they become

As we should work as one

To prove that through us

All things can be done

RAGE

There were days durning the early stages of  my recovery

when things did not go right for me

I wAs soon to give up 

But I didn't want others to see

I'm a fighter not a quitter

Io mined to fight to get better

Though the anger I feel inside

I've written this poem

 to help me let go

Of all the anger deep inside

I need to try. To hide

RAGE 

see the evil in my eyes 

It's all my rage I cannot hide 

Darkness follows.me around

I try to run bit never lets go

See the evil in my eyes 

I try to run but there is no comprise

It never seems to leave

It will lever let go

I will never give up

I must go on and face my new challenge

TnHas been far to My acceptance to what has happened

Has been far to great to bear

But the support that I've been given

seemed more than everywhere

I need to accept what I'm going through

This new life that I've been

There's no going back 

And change what has happened 

I must move on tomorrow

And accept what I'm now givin' a

 to bear

But the support that I've been given

seemed more than everywhere

I need to accept what I'm going through

This new life that I've been

There's no going back

And change what has happened 

I must move on tomorrow

And accept what I'm now givin' 

A new  chance.for me to grow

Sanity

 

as the summer grows near
My dreams are not so cclear
It is daily
Sometimes I feel I'm so confused
Is it  just luck or is it me?
As If you were to ask me
Seems that I'd be one to be the lose

But I feel I'm not a loser
Yet at times I feel mistaken
Is it up me
But I am so confused
As my senses they are taken
If I were to leave home
I need to make sure
That my sanity is  with me
As I hope to live free

   Depression

While I was depressed 

It seemed as I just tried to hide

So as of now I feel so guilty 

As my life would be my guid

Is only up to me

That I try to do my best

I want everyone to see

That my depression 

My depression is at rest

As my daily life it is not changing

Q

FEAR

                                         FEAR             

WhenI feel that someone is pushing me in the corner

I fear that just for me but that is for all others

As My fears grow grow stronger qd

As it takes me so far away from this world

I wish I could control and eliminate these fears

But words that I say 

They will  quickly disappear

It's the people that have more control over me

I tend to feel that there is more that I see

As I cry out for-help

Not from you but from me 

Leaving me no control

  

Dans page

                   

                     

WELCOME TO DANS PAGE

am trrying to wright this book, of poetry about all of the stages of my emotions

During my recovery from a serious brain injury in an auto accident

Who am I 

I believe I am a loving person

I would rather be loved in return

Than I just search as I learn  

I work hard to be that person 

I want others to feel good about themselves 

Yet sometimes I can fail

When I lose my desire  to care 

I  will fight deep inside

As I am daily confined 

I feel as though I am loosing my mind

I am unable to get out and about

Due to my health and my safety

I need to be monitored daily

So they can notice the were wrong completely 

MY LOSS

At the age of 17 was seriously injured

In an auto accident that was the drivers fault not mine

After 23 years I now can prove to others

That  nothing seemed to happen 

Making it hard for me to not be what I want to be

I just want others to not need concern of my safety

Yet there are are times when I feel the memory returns

And this anger comes back as my life is left in Gods' hands

I now have control and can see the new me

The person that can love as I wish Others can see

As of now I'm feeling so alive 

All thanks toAnnArbor Rehab

Found on Professional Drive

They claim to do nothing but there best

But what I can see this is true

As I have come here for help

I d no longer  crawl but I can walk

My injury has left my mind empty

Which lead me to Ann Arbor Rehab 

To get what I need

With nothing but the best to succeed 

I've been in and out 

Many centres before

But Ann Arbor Rehab they show me much more 

In closing I would just like to say

That if it wasn't for them 

I'd be lost every day

I wish to give thanks for the Michigan Auto No Fault Law that can and will be great financial  assistance for those who need it in the future of the citizens of this loving state of Michigan

  

Seasons

              FALL

As the tress begin to  wither

We know know that fall is drawing near

This season it goes by fast

Then winter is follows and so clear

The winter can surprise us

We don't know what it could bring 

While the winter can be cold with snow

It seems to last long  forever

Could it be we will never know

As this winter does finally pass

It brings  to us a brand new year

we greet this new year in

We are amazed how quickly is arrived

It seems that the year it went so fast

I'm so sad about what i missed 

But i just seem to forget

All the good time that I had

They are not gone

We just need to enjoy them

As the new year will go on

SUMMER

As around the corners 

I  just continue not to bother

The heat grows so much  hotter

I don't like to have to bother

By adjusting to the weather

The hotter I get it gets

The more That iperspire

I feel like I'm deep inside

Ifeellike it'scoals of a fire

The more I seemto sweat 

HELLO,  My name is Daniel Brohn

I a

Sorrow 

My life is now filled with sorrow

I wish that my life could change tomorrow 

I do understand that the past can't be changed

And there is only up to me when I wake the next day

T memories I had before I was forced to go downhill

Are suppose to be good ones 

But these memories I now have

Are still with me this day

I'm now wishing they would all go away

The memories I have inside

They still haunt me today 

Of the good days I had 

We're ripped  out from under

Y life can never be renewed 

As of this I will wonder

DAILY STORMS

Everyday I must face the battle

Of the storms within my life

There are times when I'm closed to fail

When the lightning strikes so bright

They can close my eyes so tight

The rumbles will then follow

As of this makes me hard to hear

When all of this does happens

I but as I Anticipate the next one

So I tend try to hide from the up and coming storm 

But this Time I then failed

As an addict I am warned

It seemed so innocent at this time

The consequences I must face

Didn't really seem to matter

Because I am told I am an addict

I can'tthe next storm it will strike me 

Because it may blow me off my feet